questionnaire

I copied this from another blog and there is no number 29. Maybe this other person didn't like the question or something.


1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? I have a scar between my thumb and finger on my left hand. When I was 2 or 3 I was trying to cut an orange with a sharp knife and instead stabbed myself.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM A calendar, family photos, a quilt, and a wooden thingy I got in Peru that has necklaces hanging on it.

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? If I fall asleep on my back, I snore and I've always talked (and done other things) in my sleep.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? A little bit of everything. The only thing I really don't like is heavy metal.

5. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN? I think it was around 2:30 am.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? Sappy answer-a family. More realistic answer-a chai latte from Starbucks. Most unrealistic answer-a million dollar gift certificate with which to buy books on Amazon.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? My family and dogs. Possibly not in that order! Ooh, and warm weather!

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)? I can't think of a most prized possession. I guess if I had to grab one thing if the house was on fire, it would be my laptop because it basically has my life on it, including family photos.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5'6"

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? No

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? Yes. This is why I don't watch scary movies. I have a very active imagination.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? Oprah and her new sister.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR? That my parents will become mentally or physically incapacitated and need caretaking. Or that something will happen to my nieces or nephew.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON PEOPLE YOU'RE ATTRACTED TO? No preference. My only request would be if the guy has blond hair, that he not grow one of those weird flesh-colored beards. They're creepy.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING? I'm pretty sure I won't be the one doing that.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? Coffee.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? Cheese, cheese and more cheese.

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Thanks to the previous question, I'm now in the mood for pizza.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME? Purple.

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? Um . . . no. Why would I do that?

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED? Nothing really comes to mind.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? Try like 50! If we're not including celebrities, then maybe 2ish.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? Yes, my fingertips bend. That is double jointed, right? Or does it just mean I'm freakish?!?

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? Old Navy

25. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY? No overwhelming preference for either.

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? My dog lives with my parents, so not really. Although if I could steal my neighbor's dog and have them not notice, I would do it in a heartbeat.

27. WHAT KIND IS IT? The dog that lives with my parents is an Australian Shepherd. The neighbor's dog is a Great Dane.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? I would probably try really hard not to, but in the end, yes.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED? I don't want to.

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Neither.

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?

"I have sought rest everywhere, and have found it nowhere, save in a little corner, with a little book."
-- Thomas à Kempis

33. FAVORITE PLACE? My bed.

peeping tom #2

Peeping Tom!

It was warm (relatively speaking) over the weekend and all the snow slid off the roof. Right outside of the kitchen is where the most snow piles up because two slopes dump their snow right there. Saidy, the neighbor's dog (who Lorri refers to as my child), has taken advantage of this and here is what I discovered when I looked out the kitchen window this afternoon . . .

the big date

So remember how I was complaining because I had a possible date for last Saturday, but I ended up having to work? Well, I found someone else to work, so the date was on. Things didn't really go as I had imagined they would. It turned out to not so much be an actual date as it was this dude was just dropping by to meet me and if I proved to be acceptable, maybe in the future there would be a real date. That was problem number one. Problem number two was that he showed up in coveralls and mud boots and he looked like Grizzly Adams. Problem number three was that we had only slightly more in common than Hitler and Gandhi do. For example, he doesn't watch t.v. Crazy, right?!? I mean really! Really!! We actually ended up talking for about three hours, during which time I learned the following:

• Goats have a really thick skull in front, so when you kill them you have to shoot this one spot on the side where the skull isn't. If you just shoot them straight through the forehead, it'll only stun them and they'll keep popping back up.
• When you are hunting, the meat will taste less "gamey" if you don't run the animal. If you just sneak up on it and shoot it, it won't release hormones and sweat and stuff, which changes the taste.
• You can get some kind of chip or something to make your car have more horsepower. This is a good thing because the more horsepower you have, the more of a man you are.
• UFOs fly around Area 51 all the time and Big Foot is real.
  

I'm sure I learned more, but I'm still processing the whole experience, so I'll have to report back on it later. Oh, and one other thing . . . if you use the phrase "I'm not racist, but . . ." multiple times when referring to different ethnic groups, you might just be racist.

so dramatic

I feel unsettled and anxious. This is not good. When I feel this way I start to think and question things and want to make changes. Nothing good has ever come from a decision I've made while feeling like this. And I don't know why I feel this way. I think it's partly because I have discovered that a relationship is not what I thought it was. And maybe partly because I am finding that I am not willing to do some things that are expected of me. And also a little bit because my work schedule is such that I have far too much alone time.

It is always unsettling when you find out that the relationship you have with someone is possibly not what you thought it was. What makes it really suck is when you find this out through information that wasn't meant for your eyes. This means you can't question the person about it without bringing up the fact that you read something that was supposed to be anonymous. And I'm probably over-analyzing what happened (ha! imagine that!) and taking it the wrong way, but that doesn't change the fact that now I'm wondering if things are not what I think they are with other people as well. Maybe I don't have people figured out quite like I think I do.

Someone has asked, or rather told me, that I need to do certain things, and this person is holding future opportunities over my head if I don't do these things. It's nothing horrible, but it's definitely stuff that I think is unnecessary and I don't want to do it. I think that it will turn me into someone I don't want to be. I have already dabbled in this endeavor and was far from pleased with the outcome.

I work from 4 until midnight, Monday through Friday. My roommate works pretty much the exact opposite shift as I do. We're lucky to see each other for about an hour each day. I know very few people in the area and am not sure how to go about meeting people, given the hours that I am available during the day. This means I spend all day by myself. It's never good to have that much time on your own. Or at least for me it's not. Normally I would have the weekends to go do things, but it seems like we're always short staffed, so I end up working part of the weekend. And my roommate has her daughter, who is disabled, at the house most weekends, which I love, but it also means we don't really go anywhere. And I think people here are all kind of in hibernation for the winter. Everything closes earlier in the winter and it's dark and cold and snowy, so really, why would you even want to leave the house? So I guess the rambling of this paragraph can be summed up by saying I'm a wee bit lonely.

Alright, so there's my little pity party, written out for everyone to read. I'm going to try to go ahead and get over myself now. :)

some stuff and some grrrrs

• My friend, Emily, came up for the weekend and we spent most of the time up in Jackson, seeing as how there's pretty much nothing to do where I live. Jackson was fun, though. We ate some good food and did some good shopping. At one store we did both. There's this cool new place called Vom Fass that sells flavored vinegars, oils, and spices. Jars with spigots line the walls, and you can taste whatever you want in cute little miniature Asian soup spoons. I bought several vinegars and have spent the last couple days dipping lettuce leaves in vinegar. It makes me feel very cool to have specialty vinegars. It's the little things.
• I just colored my hair again. The color I used is Chocolate Cherry, which sounds like an African-American-themed porn to me. Bow chicka bow wow!
  
• I'm getting a little tired of picking up extra shifts at work. I had a date tentatively lined up for Saturday, but because we are neverendingly short staffed, guess who has to work on Saturday! My boss keeps saying we have to make do until we can find a new employee. I didn't realize that making do was secret code for "You are a peon and as such, you have to work everything that no one else will work, which, by the way, is everything involving a weekend. So pretty much say good-bye to any little shred of hope you had left of having a social life." At least I'm the lead peon, though, right?!? I can't decide if that makes it better or worse. Oh, and all of those people in my company who complain all the time about wanting extra hours, but then will never work extra hours if it's a weekend, are little bitches. (I would apologize for the unladylike language, but I feel no remorse whatsoever.)
  
• I'm off the meat again. I am now taking spirulina for protein. It's algae and it's 60-70% protein, verses the 22% protein content in meat. It comes in powder form and is a gorgeous dark green color. Unfortunately it smells like pond scum. Fortunately, it doesn't taste like pond scum if you add it to carrot juice or Vitamin Water. Unfortunately, it does taste like pond scum if you burp within a couple hours of drinking it.
• I swore I would never be the kind of person that wears Uggs. They're far too trendy and really, they're pretty unattractive. I've been sucked into their web of fugly comfiness, though, and they're all I wear now. My reasoning for succumbing is threefold: 1. They're really comfy, obvs. 2. They're really warm, which is of the utmost importance, here in the frozen tundra of Wyoming. 3. If I wear them under my pant legs instead of having the pants tucked into them, then you can't really see them. Oh wait, there are actually four reasons: 4. As long as I don't wear them with cut-off jean shorts to the gas station to buy Cheetos (with my nasty weave showing, btw), then I feel as though I'm rocking a much classier Ugg-look than Britney Spears, which is who I think of when I think of Uggs.
• I got an AeroGarden for Christmas. I like it a lot. I want like five more of them with which to grow other things since the growing season in Wyoming is about 3 days long.