bullet points

• I spent an entire day last week watching a marathon of Keeping Up With the Kardashians.  I am so ashamed.
• Has anyone been watching Honey Boo Boo?  Apparently it is rubbing off on me, as I just bought a huge barrel of cheese balls.  I had to make sure no one was around when I took it from the car into my apartment.  I was like a white trash ninja.
• Have I mentioned before that I love spending other people's money?  I spent $970 at ShopKo tonight.  It doesn't even matter that I don't get to keep the stuff, it's just the thrill of picking things out and buying them.
• Lorri's coming to visit from Wyoming tonight.  Yay!
• Last weekend was great.  It was fun catching up with friends, hanging out at the farm and seeing my old clients.  
• I also had a couple of epiphanies while there.  I'm not going to go into what led to them, but I feel like the door is now closed on me ever moving back to Wyoming, and I'm ok with that.  I also realized that when it comes to my love life, I'm not willing to settle just so I can be with someone. 
• I've been reading obsessively lately.  I can't get enough of Harlan Coben and Lee Child books.  I'm seriously going through one book every day and a half or so. 

a quickie

I'm about to head up to Wyoming for a quick weekend vacation.  I can't wait to get out of the haze and heat of Utah!  My old roommate, Meagan, will be in town so I'm going to hang out at her family's farm/ranch and catch up with all my old friends up there.  I'm also going to go see my old clients!!!  I can't wait to see them!  It's been way too long since I've gotten my Jane and Connie hugs. 

I have to say . . . I really miss Wyoming sometimes.  I think maybe I'll end up back there someday.  Probably not in the very near future, but definitely someday.  I think it'll always feel like home there.  It has since the first time I went up there in 2005. 

Anyway . . . enough rambling.  I should probably stop watching Hallmark movies and finish packing now.

Things I'm pondering

• I'm feeling antsy again.  I think I need a hobby.  I don't really do anything crafty.  I like to cook, but don't have anyone to cook for or the money to buy any fancy ingredients.  Maybe I should take a community class or something.  
• I really need to find a way to get my staff to (for lack of a better way to say it) give a shit.  We're a not for profit, so what we can pay them per hour is based on what the government will pay, which means not much.  How do I motivate people to do a good job when they don't make much money?  I keep thinking they must care at least a little bit considering they could probably make more money at McDonald's, but I know that when I'm not there, most of them sit around and do nothing.  
• I think I might be emotionally unavailable.
• I keep thinking that maybe I should go back to school, but I think it's just because I'm bored.
• I'm finding it difficult to bond with my clients here like I did with my clients in Wyoming.  I feel like I need to find a way to form better relationships with them.  Until I do, I don't think I'm giving them the best care that I'm capable of. 

So . . . anyone have any suggestions?

latest obsessions

• Awkward.
• Hallmark Movie Channel
• Olympic drama
• middle-aged lesbians 
• Fourth-Place Medal
• fortune cookies
• reading books actually printed on paper

goings on

The day before I left for Paris I signed a lease on a new apartment, so the time since I got back has been spent moving.  Always so much fun!  This is the fourth time I've moved now in the last two years and I always say I will get rid of lots of books, but I still somehow end up with about 50 heavy book boxes.  I just need to get rid of stuff in general.  Oh well, hopefully I will be in this place for a while and I won't have to worry about moving any time soon.  Here are my thoughts on being in my own place again:

• Other than to go to work, I haven't worn clothes for days.  I've missed walking around in just undies!  It really saves on the electric bill too-I rarely have to turn the air on. 
• Cooking for one person sucks.  I can't do it.  I've been eating lots of frozen food.
• It doesn't help that my kitchen is still not fully unpacked.  I would be a lot more willing to cook if I knew where things were.
• I had house guests last week.  This is one of the main reasons I wanted a two bedroom place.  It was so much fun having people over to stay.  Of course it meant I had to put all the unpacked boxes in my bedroom while they were here, but no worries, they're all moved back into the spare bedroom now.  I'm working on them a little bit at a time.
• I have no decorations up yet-no pictures on the walls, no knick knacks on the bookcases, etc.  All in good time.  I need someone to help put pictures up-any volunteers?
• I love the location.  Everything is convenient and nearby, including work.  My commute is now 10-15 minutes.  
• This place has tons of closet space!  What's sad is that I'll probably be able to fill it up.  I really, really need to get rid of stuff!